Sunday, June 18, 2006

I found my way home...

I have been migrating back and forth between my parents house and here the last couple of weeks so that is why I have not been posting. Did not want my last post making everyone think I am a completely negative person. Only partially.

My parents are traveling now and it is making me crazy. My dad is working and playing golf in a new city every week so I know he is having fun it just sucks for me. I have never really been away from my parents for very long. There was the 6 months I lived in North Carolina with my first husband. Needless to say the marriage lasted about as long as I lived there. So I am feeling kinda weird and abandoned. I know this is not the case and I just need to grow up. Plenty of people do not live near their parents. I just do not want to be one of them. Irrational I know. One day I will grow up.

My birthday is coming up and it is bothering me. I will be 29. Not terribly old but good god it is almost 30! I am 9 months older than mike and he teases me about this all the time but it really is starting to get to me. He looks young. I do not. Wrinkles are scaring me half to death, even more so than my abnormally large ass. I can lose the ass without surgery, can't lose the wrinkles that way.

Anyways, I am alive, negative as ever. But, fear not, I will be posting more soon!

Friday, June 02, 2006

Mama always said....

You know the little saying "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all"? I have adopted this as my blogging motto lately. The way I see it, no one wants to read about someone complaining all the time. At least not unless it is really interesting. Two strikes against me there.

I would love to say that the normalcy of life has not engulfed me but I would be lying. Just a plain old mommy and wife with an attitude problem. In trying my new not complaining so much thing, I have been thinking. About things like the past. How I used to be skinny. Possibly even hot. How Mike and I used to have so much fun.

I know all of this was before kids, and I know there is a way to get it back after kids. Hell, they can add to the fun. Sometimes. What I need to know is how to get motivated enough to do all the things necessary to create a better life for my whole family. I think I may possibly be taking a few steps in the right direction.

I have been cooking more, which means healthier meals. Playing with the kids more which means not yelling so much. Now Mike, there's a lost cause. We are both so busy we never have time for each other. I mean that in the most literal sense. NEVER being key word.

Not to whine, but I really want my husband back. I keep telling myself that December will be here sooner than I think and once he walks across the stage in his cap and gown, he is mine again.