Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Sleep deprivation... What can it do for you?

The last few nights have been miserable! We spent all Sunday night in the ER and for what? To be told to give tylenol and they cannot figure out what is wrong. Poor Babykins has ran a fever for the last 3 days. I finally have an appointment with her doctor today. Isn't it wonderful that you can take your child, who you feel is sick enough to visit a hospital, to an emergency room and get sent home knowing as much as when you stepped in the door? What the hell is wrong with these people? My daughter is not a big child, she is tall and skinny weighing in at a whopping 26 pounds. To see her all pale and lethargic makes me worry. Nearly every time I have had to take her to the ER she is admitted. This makes me feel like a bad mother, for two reasons. I feel like I wait too long to have her treated. Then, I feel like one of those mothers with munchausen by proxy syndrome. She is always at the doctors office. They know my voice on the phone. Her doctor actually takes my word over his nurse practitioner. It does make me feel good that he tells me I am one of the "better" parents at knowing my child and her symptoms. None of this makes me feel any better though. My baby is hurting and I can't fix her.

Monday, September 19, 2005

Pierced and happy

I did it. I went Saturday with my mom and mike to get something pierced. We decided on Twilight studios because the girl there is super nice, a little on the strange side, but I guess you have to be to repeatedly inflict pain all day long. Anyways, a friend met us there, I think he enjoyed watching us willingly inflict pain on ourselves. I know you are still wondering what I got pierced, Mike got his tongue and his eyebrow done. I watched and it was totally gross. Tried to talk my mom into getting her tongue done but she wouldn't. Chicken. I got my nose done. The piercer asked who first so I decided to go ahead and get it over with. I have a tiny tiny stud on the right side. I feel cute. It hurt like hell and now, 2 days later it is a little swollen but I think that is just because it is healing. Overall, I would do it again. In time I may get even braver and decide to get even more risque'.

I must have had an affinity for needles this weekend, because I got my nose pierced then decided I needed a "shot". Good old B12 and testosterone. Hopefully it will kick in soon. Oh well, I will post a pic of my new haircut and piercing soon. Gotta go shopping!

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Stress relief

No, this post is not about sex. We have not exactly had much of that in a long time. Gee, I wonder why? Anyways, I have taken to doing crazy things to alleviate my stress. Like yesterday for example, I went and chopped off all my hair. My hair was just a few inches above my butt and now it is up to my ears. Feels great though, no more headaches because of my hair.

My next act of craziness I think will be getting something pierced. It is reversible and in most cases you can hide it. I have not decided what I want to get pierced yet. Last night I was doing a little research on this and it just completely intrigues me. The typical belly button piercing is not for me. If I am going to willfully subject myself to intense pain, I am going to make it worth it.

Haven't given much thought to the crazy act after that although I am sure it will come to me. Thinking about all this stuff and getting excited over it has somewhat reduced all the other crap going on in my life right now. Which is a good thing. I think we should all start being more spontaneous and adventurous.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Can of worms...

Maybe I am approaching a subject best left alone. I am not questioning my faith or my belief in god. Religion has stumped me lately. Things have been really bothering me and I think maybe I ought to talk to someone. My feelings do not exactly correspond to the laws or rules stated in the bible. Like homosexuals for instance, I see nothing wrong with their sexual orientation. As long as their heart is good and they are not forcing it on me, why is this bad? I know several people like that. They are amazing people as far as their hearts and charitable acts are concerned.

What I believe now is what I believed as a little girl. That god works through us. To see just how big our hearts are and just how much we are willing to help one another.

I don't see too much of this going around in spite of all these churches. And you know in the south there are more churches than you can count. Anyways, I know this is probably going to get me a lot of negative responses but what I need are positive ones.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

I'm famous!

Here is my claim to fame, a pic of my belly dancing class online. I am the one on the right in the black top and beige skirt.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

My shadow

Okay, fuck writing about my trip. This is going to be much more colorful and entertaining. My newest dependent will not leave me the fuck alone. I am talking every waking moment of the day she is right there. I mean LIKE this in your face. Oh and even better, she has not started her period yet. She sees the Dr on Monday. What the hell do I do?How do you say "get the fuck out of my face" in a nice way? I am trying so hard not to lose my cool, it is hard for me to see this is not all her fault. I just want 5 minutes alone with my husband without someone listening outside the door. I cannot even go to the damn bathroom without her standing outside waiting on me. It is like having a shadow inside your house. She has the mental capacity to be vain and to realize that people notice how you dress, why the hell can't she realize I want her to back the hell up and get off me? Literally. Even my babies don't cling that much!
All I want is alone time by myself or with my husband. At this point anything is welcome.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Back home and loving it!

The past few weeks have been pretty stressful. We managed to get through Joey's 1st birthday, which I thought was very nice and I was so glad that so many friends were there to share it. We went to Boston and back. Safely. Not comfortably but safely. Which does matter more. Anyways, my 2 martinis are kicking in so I need to get to bed but we are home and I have several days worth of writing to do. As soon as the kids let me I will get it all posted. :)